Hello People

I am starting my blog today. I was having this thought to start writing from so long that I can't even remember now. Today, I was watching some movie and somehow it just pushed me to write something. I haven't planned till now what to write or how to write. I think this will be a place where I can just dump all my thoughts and I won't be judged as soon as I share it. 

I needed someone from long time with whom I can share anything that's in my mind. I suppose we are all not that lucky , I didn't find that person till now. But I just want to see what will happen if I instead of sharing with one person , I share it with everyone. 

Today, I was just sitting in my room , it has a window . Whenever sunlight comes from it and it gives my room a yellow touch , a happy touch I would say , it really feels good . I don't know how but it gives me some positive vibes. But I only feel it when I am alone not with someone. You won't believe there was a time when there was this person in my life that I couldn't live without. I couldn't bare the thought of parting with him. We were in relationship for a long time and I used to absolutely love his company. I would want nothing but to be with him. I would not say that feeling was not reciprocated. It's not some one sided love story. I felt loved , cared and pampered. But that time was long ago , Today I am his wife and it will be lie if I say I feel the same for him or he feels the same. We are together now more than we could ever be but I don't feel we are together. What happened to us? Is it normal to feel this way because you are married ? Is this what happens when you get married. I feel we just lost that spark. Earlier I used to keep trying to find ways to get back that spark. But now  I have just left it like that, we fight , we argue but we don't understand each other. After lot of fight we just agree to not discuss those topics ever again because we couldn't agree on anything mutual.  Do you think that is normal ? Or Am I just over reacting or over thinking as he always say ?